“Great Things Are Coming My Way”

In my lowest point in life, I remember, the words I was able to utter were: “Great things are coming my way.” Somehow, I have a feeling that whatever I was going through at that time, however hard it was to look for the light at the end of the tunnel, I was still very much hopeful that “something great is coming my way.” I just have to trust.

Last holy week up until my training for CIS’ module 4, the predominant theme of my prayer was vocation.  Vocation not so much of state of life but vocation as finding God’s will for me.  Accepting God’s will for me to be happy.  I also remember, even prior to attending the retreat that I can already sense that the invitation for me really is to minister to the laity.  To promote vocation, to make people want and desire to seek, find, feel and do God’s will in their lives.  I know that one way to accomplish this is through retreat direction.  But another way can be through teaching.

I really really wanted to teach eversince I was young.  But somehow, I set aside this desire because I wanted to earn more first.  I was aware that teaching will not make me rich (although, pursuing another career path didn’t make me either It was only in 2007, after I finished a retreat that I reconsidered pursuing this desire again.  But I didn’t immediately jump into teaching.  My director asked me if I would like to try studying theology first.  And so I did.  I enjoyed my classes at LST to the point that I told myself that even if I don’t pursue teaching I would still be okay as I was already enriched by my experience from studying here.  And thus, this semester, before it ended, I had the urge to consider going back again to corporate world.  I started applying again for a brand management position.  I was excited to go back.  I told myself, I will just finish my thesis later on and pursue teaching thereafter.  But I believe, God is faithful to his promise.  He would like to keep his promise to fulfill my desire.  He knows where I would be truly truly happy.  It was after my 5th job rejection that I finally surrendered my “fate”, my “future”, and my “plans” to God. Sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, “siguro gusto pa rin ng Diyos ituloy ang layunin nya sa akin.” Thus, all the more that I affirmed myself, “something great is surely coming my way.” As to the time and the ways, I have to surrender these to God.

Then came this day, today.  I e-mailed Lasalle this morning to express to them that I would like to activate my pending application with them which I deferred last time.  At noon, they called me and asked if I can come at 4pm to do demo teaching.  Even if I had no idea what to teach for demo, I went off.  My friend Jericho was with me to support me :)  There were three members in the panel, including the department chair.  I had only 15 minutes to present.  I chose to present Ecclesiology. After that, there was a brief interview, I really didn’t know that time if I got the job or not.  But I expressed to them that I really really wanted to teach and in order for me to realize this goal, I have to start somewhere, someone has to risk on getting me. Then, after some preliminary remarks from the chair, he finally welcomed me to their team.  It felt so good.  I thought that was it.  Then I became even more excited when they told me that I would be teaching a course on vocation (Call to Holiness: Married life and Vocation).  This subject is really close to my heart.  I was excited because I know that aside from what I have learned from LST, I can definitely bring to them and share with the students my Ignatian spirituality. hehehehe. Things went so fast and before I knew it, they were dictating to me already my schedule, my room assignment, etc.  I was glad too that the schedule given to me are the free days I have arranged with my present employer. So really, there is no need for me to change my schedule.  I can still work with the AA’s and teach.

God is truly wonderful and great!  I am so overwhelmed with joy.

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